Do what you were made to do!

It was a blessed night of worship (led by CTI) and getting to know other fellowships on campus at Ryerson. It's been truly a journey see what God has in store for me. I've been really searching and listening to see what/where God wants me to be next summer. Once in a while i feel Him tugging my heart to go to do missions and tonight i was given a chance to audition for CTI's music ministry. I may not be the best singer or the talented musician, but i know if it is God's will it will happen in time. I don't know whether i will be accepted, but i thought why not take a chance and give it a shot. If i never try I will never know, right?

I don't want to sit around and wait, but do my part of what God has told us to do. We are told to go out and share His good news. Be disciples of all nations. When we put Him first, He will guide and bless everything we do. I trust in Him and I don't want to live life like i don't care but to take my cross and go to the world for Him and His name sake.

Recharged

Its been quite a while since i went home (since Canada day)... so i randomly decided that i would go home this past weekend. I worked hard the week before to get all my assignments/projects done and be a head. I've been working and striving hard to get my work done early and not procrastinate. Start the project when i get it and not wait until it's due to start working.

The hard work finally paid off and i was able to go home and relax for the weekend. It really was a refreshing time. I sincerely haven't been home in such a long time that when i entered to the Hub saturday evening for fellowship a brother called me "the prodigal daughter"... i kind of laughed and thought to myself its not exactly true, but i have been away for long and rarely do i come home. That really reminded me that as much as i have in toronto, i still have a home that openly welcomes me whenever i need it.

I'm so thankful for the friends and family I've been blessed with! He is truly great and wonderful. Blessed are those who trust in Him.

A righteous man may have many troubles, but the Lord delivers him form them all - Psalm 34:19

Rejoice Always! - 1 Thess 5:16
Thank you for everything you have given to us. May be constantly remember to count your blessings.

Through thick and thin

It may hurt when your heart falls for someone who doesn't have the same feelings, but no matter what, we know that God loves us unconditionally more than we could ever imagine!

But I have calmed and quieted my soul, like a weaned child with its mother; like a weaned child is my soul within me. - Psalm 131:2

An eureka moment

It really only takes a moment of realization to figure out the thing you've been dwelling on. Sometimes it may be not what you wanted or an unpleasant realization, but a realization none the less. 


Ever since I left York and started fresh at OCAD I've been lonely... even my brother tells me to go out... I use to be the girl that was out every weekend and didn't come home until late hours. I quickly used family to fill in the hole, but soon my heart fell for someone. Slowly, I've used different parts of my life to replace the emptiness of where my friends use to be. Today during my quiet time it strike me that I can not continue to do that to myself. It's not healthy. The intimacy that my friends gave me can not be taken over by a different part of me. I've been spending a lot of time with Him and having an assurance that things will turn around. 


Even though at school I've been constantly battling and struggling to make friends, but i have been attending RCCF and people are very welcoming and I think I've found a new fellowship that i can rely on. I know it will take time to find my comfort within, but I know I am finished with hiding from my problems.  I don't need to have a guy to give me the intimacy that i was lacking, but friends and brothers and sisters in Christ to support and help me stand back up. 


Sometimes the truth is harsh, but it's true. Now I'm left with the question, did I really like him or was I seeking for intimacy in the wrong place? I guess I will never know... as I continue to walk forward and put all feelings aside. There are some things better knowing earlier than later... before you fall too deep in.


Do not be anxious about anything, but in everything, by prayer and petition , with thanksgiving, present your request to God. - Philippians 4:6 This verse is always a good reminder! we're human and can only do so much. you know you can always count on Him and rely on Him in the good days or bad.