Do what you were made to do!

It was a blessed night of worship (led by CTI) and getting to know other fellowships on campus at Ryerson. It's been truly a journey see what God has in store for me. I've been really searching and listening to see what/where God wants me to be next summer. Once in a while i feel Him tugging my heart to go to do missions and tonight i was given a chance to audition for CTI's music ministry. I may not be the best singer or the talented musician, but i know if it is God's will it will happen in time. I don't know whether i will be accepted, but i thought why not take a chance and give it a shot. If i never try I will never know, right?

I don't want to sit around and wait, but do my part of what God has told us to do. We are told to go out and share His good news. Be disciples of all nations. When we put Him first, He will guide and bless everything we do. I trust in Him and I don't want to live life like i don't care but to take my cross and go to the world for Him and His name sake.

Recharged

Its been quite a while since i went home (since Canada day)... so i randomly decided that i would go home this past weekend. I worked hard the week before to get all my assignments/projects done and be a head. I've been working and striving hard to get my work done early and not procrastinate. Start the project when i get it and not wait until it's due to start working.

The hard work finally paid off and i was able to go home and relax for the weekend. It really was a refreshing time. I sincerely haven't been home in such a long time that when i entered to the Hub saturday evening for fellowship a brother called me "the prodigal daughter"... i kind of laughed and thought to myself its not exactly true, but i have been away for long and rarely do i come home. That really reminded me that as much as i have in toronto, i still have a home that openly welcomes me whenever i need it.

I'm so thankful for the friends and family I've been blessed with! He is truly great and wonderful. Blessed are those who trust in Him.

A righteous man may have many troubles, but the Lord delivers him form them all - Psalm 34:19

Rejoice Always! - 1 Thess 5:16
Thank you for everything you have given to us. May be constantly remember to count your blessings.

Through thick and thin

It may hurt when your heart falls for someone who doesn't have the same feelings, but no matter what, we know that God loves us unconditionally more than we could ever imagine!

But I have calmed and quieted my soul, like a weaned child with its mother; like a weaned child is my soul within me. - Psalm 131:2

An eureka moment

It really only takes a moment of realization to figure out the thing you've been dwelling on. Sometimes it may be not what you wanted or an unpleasant realization, but a realization none the less. 


Ever since I left York and started fresh at OCAD I've been lonely... even my brother tells me to go out... I use to be the girl that was out every weekend and didn't come home until late hours. I quickly used family to fill in the hole, but soon my heart fell for someone. Slowly, I've used different parts of my life to replace the emptiness of where my friends use to be. Today during my quiet time it strike me that I can not continue to do that to myself. It's not healthy. The intimacy that my friends gave me can not be taken over by a different part of me. I've been spending a lot of time with Him and having an assurance that things will turn around. 


Even though at school I've been constantly battling and struggling to make friends, but i have been attending RCCF and people are very welcoming and I think I've found a new fellowship that i can rely on. I know it will take time to find my comfort within, but I know I am finished with hiding from my problems.  I don't need to have a guy to give me the intimacy that i was lacking, but friends and brothers and sisters in Christ to support and help me stand back up. 


Sometimes the truth is harsh, but it's true. Now I'm left with the question, did I really like him or was I seeking for intimacy in the wrong place? I guess I will never know... as I continue to walk forward and put all feelings aside. There are some things better knowing earlier than later... before you fall too deep in.


Do not be anxious about anything, but in everything, by prayer and petition , with thanksgiving, present your request to God. - Philippians 4:6 This verse is always a good reminder! we're human and can only do so much. you know you can always count on Him and rely on Him in the good days or bad. 

Therefore you have no excuse, O man, every one of you who judges. For in passing judgment on another you condemn yourself, because you, the judge, practice the very same things.
- Romans 2:1(ESV)

shedding of tear

I know i can find comfort in you no matter the situation. I tear down my wall and fall in front of you. I lay my burdens and weaknesses unto you. There is no shame nor judgement. You allow me to shed my tears knowing I'm in the comfort of your arms. And you pick me up every time i fall. The intimacy I've found in you is irreplaceable. You are the one I go to and can count on you every time. Thank you.

where there is nothing, there is a possibility of everything

what's your dream??

If you can dream it, you can do it. All our dreams can come true, if we have the courage to pursue them.  

—Walt Disney

pause a moment

feels weird having to walk to school and not living 2mins away. i truly miss being able to wake up 5mins before class and still be able to make it on time! but mostly i miss my friends =(

Would you be my Hero?

A Visit to Center Island

  

 It takes more than one to make a noise

J'adore <3  My escape, My way of expression, My vision, My freedom, My reality, My joy and My world. Life behind the lens...

Weekend away

Fun and relaxation time at the cottage!

 

These exceptional people bring a smile to my face and laughter that gives me joy

Concluded a 10 year adventure

The 8th and final Harry Potter movie was released over the weekend and it concluded the adventure or many readers and fans. Harry Potter and the Deathly Hallows Part II played a huge role in many of our generations childhood or young adulthood. Some many have grown up and see the novels and movies childish, but for me it was a must see movie to give myself an ending. Time to turn the past page and close the cover. Harry Potter was a great series and will live on for generations to come. I'm kind of sad that it's over, but it's a happy one.  Harry Potter will be a legacy kept amongst our generation.

First movieFinal movie

What surrounds you

Take the time to admire and appreciate the beauty around. Don't let it just go by, but stop and be thankful for what you have.

just STOP

im soooooo tired of always being the one listening

family time

its been a fun filled weekend with family =)

two of my favourite things in one

 somethings are just more fun with two 

Campus Challenge 2011

We always go to a conference wanting to learn something, but I find that when i go with that mind set I struggle to focus because I am frequently asking myself what I'm learning. Stuck thinking about I need to learn something and not being able to listen and learn. As I look back on my past weekend I slowly connect the dots from what was spoken and what happened during those few days.

It was very unfortunate that i fell down a flight of stairs and hurt my back on saturday afternoon, but with God's grace i am okay. Through that experience i really felt the love of my brothers and sisters that i had just met or didn't even know. The prayers that i received were plentiful. What i took from this conference is  "LOVE" and how we should all love. Because He first loved us, we love because He first loved (1 John 4:19) and we especially need to love the less fortunate. Sharing with those who don't know God is like giving the best gift ever to someone. In the end of the day it will all depend on whether they receive or not, but it is our job to share this wonderful blessing to everyone. Let us live on the edge for Christ and be a light in the darkness so that everyone may see that we are different and question why.

“A new command I give you: Love one another. As I have loved you, so you must love one another. By this everyone will know that you are my disciples, if you love one another.” John 13: 33-35

trying something new

THREW/HIT/CAUGHT my first softball today =D

a stroll in the park

picked up my camera for the first time since last summer to shoot leisurely with the sole purpose of shooting! <3

        

Our paths continue to intertwine

good friends are like stars, you don't always see them, but you know they're always there.

where my heart is

I struggled figuring out where i would be this summer, but I now know! I really love home where i get my peace and quiet, but it just felt so right when i came back to Toronto. I knew right away that this is the place where i would be spending this summer. It's so great that i have created a whole new community. I have moved on, but home will always be there! I am so excited to see what's in store for this summer. I will be living downtown Toronto. Will be taking summer school, hoping to get a job and playing softball for the first time. Lots to explore and plenty to discover!

I'm sorry

As much as I'm cautious about my actions, I'm human. I stumbled and caused someone else to also stumble. I've been conflicted all day asking myself "what the hell were you thinking bonnie?!?!!???" Now i need to clear things up with them. I'm foreseeing a destroyed friendship in the end though.

A friend reminded me ... God turns even our failures into victory. so hopefully you can deal with it and all will be good

And now all i can do is give it all up to Him and depend on Him.

LOST

It some times feel like i don't know anything... or maybe i really don't. School has been out for just about 2 weeks now and i've really done nothing and have NO idea what im going to be doing this summer. I don't even know whether i would be in Toronto or Ottawa... sigh*

For He is good

Its been amazing to have spent the night giving praises to the Lord almighty with my brothers and sisters from Ryerson, U of T and York! What a blessing!! I am so thankful for all the great things God has done this year at all of the campus and may He continue to work through each student.

I would also like to say thank you for my acceptance i received after returning from c4c formal.

Praise The Lord for a wonderful night!

Things are easier said than done

Christ is the movement

It has been my pleasure to work with such wonderful brothers and sisters. All on fire for God! These past few months of prepping has paid off and it all happened because of Him and in Him alone! PTL for all the joy and laughter this group has brought and may it continue through our every day doings. Let us take our passion and be a light in the world for Him. (Matthew 5:14)

Banksy- There is Always Hope

Finally reunited

i can't believe it... its been half a year since i saw my TWIN!

The more you talk about her the harder it is for me to talk to you. I put on my fake smile and tell you all the things you want to hear... why?? I want to let go and send the balloon up into the sky, but why are you making it so much more difficult? I look up to the sky and hope for a wishing star.

Passing of another year...

A shooting star only last as long as you see it.

365 days could be said as a long period of time, but also could be a brief moment in a life's span. Some say the moment we entered earth, we started to die, while some say it's the start of a long journey. You choose how you would like to see life, but why dread something that's a damper on life when you can have hope each and every new day ahead. Make the most of each day! Treat every day as a new day and the last. What makes today a more special day than another?

I'm greatly thankful for everything and more. Cherish the friends and family no matter what the weather outside is like. They are always there to lend a shoulder. Each being unique and special, and holds a different part of you together.

Time does fly by faster than we want some time. Tomorrow is a new day and that new day brings new and greater responsibilities. No longer a teen and starting a new decade in the books.

The past 365 have given me experience and adventures that i would never forget...

(2.1.10-2.1.11)

• baby Kaitlyn (19 years a part)
• winter olympics (held in Canada)
• jbhr breakfunch
• TC REC (sloooow...)
• Hong Kong, China, Japan, Italy, Greece and Turkey...
• new hair, new style, but still the same person!
• baby Ava
• second year at York University
• C4C
• David Choi concert
• summit & winter conference

Each event shapes me just as much as the one before it

Another 365 comes with new and more experiences... like it or not face the music and get the best out of each.

At the end of a busy and stressful week there is bad news, but that's what make good news sound just that much better!

3 weeks in counting... then it starts all over again.

Round 2... this time a little different and a bit more complicated, but nothing is impossible. Never know where I'll be 55 weeks from now. All i know is that I'll follow my heart and the voice of my Father.

Who ever said it has to be good-bye?

closing of 2010